August 13, 2004

• Lately I’ve been having a really bad habit of getting the muchies
  throughout the day.  It’s got to the point where I’ll eat several
  times a day.  When I wake up, before I go to work, at work, and
  right after work.  The “right after work” part is what I’ll be
  regretting one of these days, since it means I’m eating at 3AM before I
  go to sleep. Part of me thinks that I’m just getting hungry more
  because my diet is out of whack, and the other part of me thinks I’m
  getting a case of depression.

  Usually I’m more than able to hold off my hunger when I get the
  munchies. In fact people would tell me that I should eat more often because
  there are times when I eat only once a day.  Sure that’s a bad
  eating habit to do, but I’ve done that since I was young and it never
  bothered me before.  I get to save money too, which is the primary reason to my eating habit.

  But you know how they say that the more depressed you are, the more you
  eat? I think that’s what’s really causing me to eat so much.  It
  isn’t that life is such a huge mess for me right now, it’s just that
  there are all these little changes that are happening that’s probably
  getting to me emotionally and mentally.  There are many things
  that I wish would happen and many things that I wish wouldn’t
  happen.  It all involves work, my financial future, and the state
  of letting all those little things I’ve been procrastinating on finally
  pile up on me. Those thoughts just rotate around my head every single
  time, it’s getting to the point where I’m…..depressed about it. 
  That’s when the munchies hit.

  My philosophy on happiness has always been that “if you are happy, then
  good, because there are many sad people out there.”  Right now
  though I’m feeling the opposite of that and I feel that “I am happy,
  but I wish I was happier,” which is not the philosophy I want to go by,
  but that’s what my body feels right now.

  

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