August 24, 2004

• Normally, I’m not a fan of big gatherings, but I always thought it was
  simply because I was just selective to which gatherings I like to be
  in. The past long weekend I had makes me second think that
  explanation.  The first excuse was that I’m just quiet around a
  large group, but that isn’t entirely true either.  The second
  excuse is that I don’t have anything to say really, which I suppose is
  a half truth.  My girlfriend even said that she can’t shut me up
  sometimes, so there’s more to it than that.

  In the past, I’ve been told that I can be too direct and callous about
  my opinions at times.  I’ve also noticed that I tend to have
  unpopular opinions about somethings, and I’ve been in conflict with
  others because of that. I try and consciously refrain from speaking my
  mind too much unless provoked to do so, because I quite honestly would
  rather not get into heated arguments.  I suppose because of this
  thinking I’m not into conversing in large crowds and it’s kinda holding
  me back a bit.  I’m pretty much in a “speak only when needed to”
  mode when I’m around people. 

  I guess I simply just need to find that proper balance to solve this “problem”….. that doesn’t involve alcohol. We’ll see how it goes, as I still have lots of events I need to attend to in the next weeks. To be continued….

  
  The evening sky of Los Angeles, California.  aarrghhh the bloody sky of doom!!!!!

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